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    Saturday, January 25th, 2003
    7:45 pm
    Good news...and betrayal... all in one
    The birth was the most painful thing i had ever experienced in my entire life. I felt as if my stomach was tortured by a balrog....my entrails being ripped apart by claws... but the pain and everything was well worth it... for my two children....Altimë, my daughter.. and Estel... my son. They are my pride and joy.. I never felt more protective and loving of them than i do now...

    My husband was holding Estel, rocking him gently, then when he laid him down next to his sister, he came to my bedside to kiss my forehead. "Thank you melithril." he whispered quietly to me."

    I blinked quietly, surprise filling my eyes, "What do you mean melamin?" I asked him softly as I put a blanket over Altime and Estel; looking up at him with surprise.

    He sat next to my bedside, and with the most passion and caring i had ever felt in his kiss, he leaned over and kissed me softly. "You gave me everything i could ever have wanted... I wanted to say thank you..."

    I felt my mind was abuzz with emotion as i smiled, "Go... you have a meeting with haldir and my father..." I reminded him quietly, "We have much to discuss about the coming war...."

    Legolas sighs, "Yes.. I know. I shall have guards posted at the doors.... and i will return as fast as possible..." he kissed me deeply again as he gazed deep into my eyes, "Amin mela lle... melithril...." he told me softly.

    I smiled, pushing him out the door, "I will not deal with you being late and angering my father... " and just before he left, I yelled out, "Amin mela lle melamin...." I watched him blow me a kiss as he left.

    As I was sitting around... I looked and saw Galatea come to my room. She did not open the door, but i could feel her outside of it. “Mani? Tula..” Vorladien’s still slightly exhausted voice calls out, bidding Galatea into the room, benighted to the danger lingering so close to her.

    Wiping a smirk off her lips at Legolas not being present, Galatea slowly enters the room, closing the door behind her and smiling warmly.

    "Vedui', mellonamin.”

    A light smile plays at Vorladien’s features as she motions for Galatea to come sit beside her on the bed. “What brings you here to fair Lórien, arwenamin?” I asked curiously, for I did not know that it would be that soon before she came to see me....

    Stifling the urge to bring out both daggers and rip them through my pale skin, I could see Galatea merely shifts her glance around the room, I could see she could not see my children...

    “Simply to check in on you, pen neth.”

    Something about her all too coy words and shifty personality bring me to inch backward slowly in her bed, staring hard at the woman before her. There was something else that seemed....wrong about her... something....dark.

    A light movement from one of the children causes Galatea to rapidly look in their direction, and I could see that she was not breathing for a moments time. Turning around and kneeling beside the cradles, she smiles tenderly at the twins and then to Vorladien who seems to relax finally.

    Galatea resumes her sitting position on the bed after a moment, touching a gentle hand to Vorladien’s face and trailing it down to her neck, gripping it tightly in one swift choke.

    “Mani nae la umien!?” Her gaze is fierce, holding Vorladien tightly as she struggles ineffectively. "Letting that man corrupt you like this!!"

    I felt my voice begin to choke as i gripped her hand around my throat, “Tampa!! Tanya awra!! Saes!” I pleaded with her, when she finally loosened her hold on my neck, I stopped as I punched her to let me go, and tried to move for the door.

    Quickly unsheathing a dagger from one boot, Galatea’s façade vanishes, giving way to her feral, violent nature. My eyes were wide in shock, but upset in seeing that she was taking this path of way....

    Having heard the commotion, a guard opened the door lightly, peeking around the corner, “Arwenami—Mani?!” Latching onto Galatea from behind and grasping her in a choke, he looked to me, his eyes full of shock and surprise."Arwenamin, Are you all right?"

    “Uuma dela; I am fine.” I told the guard... rubbing my neck in a slight pain.

    I looked to Galatea, my eyes full of pity and sorrow. “I thought you had changed, wethrinaer, but I was proven wrong.”

    Her gaze turns back to the guard, speaking slowly, her strength drained, “Sana he.” I heard her choke out...

    Snarling to the command, Galatea gives a final struggle from the choke, bending down and grasping the dagger, thrusting it forward into my thigh with a wicked glare. I couldnt stop feeling the pain like the arrow in my ankle as she tore a wicked gash in my leg.

    Reacting quickly, the guard grabbed Galatea by the back of her neck, pulling her up and thrusting his own dagger into the back of her arm, pulling her out of the room and biding another guard to fetch help for me...

    I stumbled on my bed, the blood oozing deeply out of my leg and onto my bed sheets, My babies were crying, but my leg hurt too much to do anything and walk...

    My mother rushed into the room, and to my side. "My daughter...." was all she could say, her eyes held just the slightest amount of worry and pain.

    I felt my voice weak from Galatea trying to choke me, and my bloodloss as it stained our bedsheets. "Forgive me mother... I had not known she would turn....." I whispered softly.

    My mother shook her head, and ordering maidens to take care of the children... she healed my leg with the prayers of old.. and my wound grew to a lesser one, as we bandaged my leg.

    Erestor, who had always taken such a protective stance for me.. staying in Lorien thanks to his mothers worry for me rushed into the room, "Arwenamin...Mani...?!?" he said worried and in a rush.

    Galadriel stopped him, "She is all right child... go to the war meeting....pretend as if nothing happened... and tell nothing of this to any of them... especially her husband... we shall deal with this later."

    Erestor looked at me with worry, but i shook my head, "Listen to her lady-ship my nephew... for I shall be all right." I kissed his forehead. "Now Go."

    Erestor nodded and left in a rush. I sighed. What would my father do or say... more importantly.. what will my husband wish to do to galatea after this....

    Current Mood: betrayed
    I will follow my heart
    Saturday, January 18th, 2003
    9:27 pm
    So many things....
    The reunion of myself with Glorfindel and Haldir was one of much joy.... even though I was not able to stand to greet them... I felt the tears of Haldir... one of the few times I had ever seen onoro cry for me... I kissed his temple... my eyes softly gleaming at him, with a whisper, "I am glad you've come....I have missed you so...."

    Haldir shook his head, his fingers brushing gently across my forhead, where my gash lay.... "Do not even speak... dear sister... I will not leave your side....."

    I also felt Glorfindel hold me as well.. whispering prayers to Isil... his own eyes glazen with softened tears of joy and relief... "Arwenamin...." was all i heard him croon to me softly, his face warmed up to me.....

    I felt my lips softly smile, and kiss his forehead, "Amin mela lle....gwanur..." Was all I had to say. And it was all that was needed for him.

    I also knew that Glorfindel was upset with Luthien.... why it is i am unsure. She has done nothing but care and protect me... why would he be angered with her? I could tell...although i refused to speak. I knew my husband knew of my concern and anger, when i felt his arms wrap around my waist, and hugging me gently yet firmly to his chest. I nodded my head timidly, with a silent assurance that not only I.... but our children were safe. Yes, I said Children. I knew that when i was beaten by the Mirkwood guards... I had two children growing within my womb... and knew i would do all in my power to protect them.

    We were prepared to go... when i looked to the trees. There was no sound... no noise... but the shadows of my heightened senses were attuned to Isil... "ON GUARD!" I tried to shout to everyone.... but we were too late... and my eyes were closed by darkness....


    .*.Unseen by the eyes of the Fellowship of the Light....*.

    A moist puff of breath illuminates under Isil’s waxing light, the dark figure of a rider upon horseback visible for a moment. The beast throws its head languidly to one side, muscles visible under the harsh glow. The horse is large and dark; a hybrid of the warm blood and draft horses.

    Golden lashes fluttering open, Vorladien wakes with a start, only to be met with the brief image of her struggling spouse held fast and bound by two female figures. About to call out, a swift blow comes across her temple, darkness creeping into her once more.

    “All are here, beleger,” A mildly timid woman whispers to another.

    The five limp bodies of Aragorn, Glorfindel, Haldir, Legolas, and Vorladien are held, each by one woman upon horse, bound and tied to allow no escape.

    “Oh what Thranduil wouldn’t do to have these jewels.” A dark smile twists the lips of the woman seemingly in charge. Her face is fair but death-dealing, her dark locks stained with white around her hairline- much like the huge beast she rides.

    “Do what you will with the men, ladies!” Her voice is wrought with toxin, “But keep the Light safe.”


    .*.

    A warm light slowly kissed my face, bidding me awake with the soft song of various birds and babbling fountains.

    “Ah, you are awake then..” I could hear a voice say on the other side of the bed.

    The heavily accented voice and intimidatingly beautiful figure before her had sent me backwards with abash, staring at the woman only feet before her.

    Laughing, the elf-maiden seems slightly less intimidating as I felt her pull me roughly to my feet.

    “Fear not, pen neth! I do not wish to inflict any pain upon you.” she tried to assure me.

    The wound upon my temple seemed to throb slightly as the woman was continuing. There were so many things going through my brain...mainly what came of my brothers and my husband.....

    “Amin essa naa Galatea, vedui’.” She nods respectfully, her tone all the more regal as she continues, “You are not safe in Lothlorien anymore, Light of Elendil.”

    I tried to bring myself to remain to my loyal upbringing, but i was angered by their mode of saving me, “What of Legolas? What of my husband?” apparently my arrogant tone in my demand in seemed to mildly wrankle this elven maiden.

    “Your husband and three other men have been taken by my ladies as well.” She seemed slightly disgusted, “But what need to you have of men?” A roar of agreement rises from any of the maidens near by. “We’ve them held and being treated only as they deserve.” A smirk crosses her lips.

    I attempted to protest viciously, however the excrutiating wave over me caused me to slowly feel ill as a soft, beautiful singing ringing in her ears before the beautiful garden-like surroundings slowly faded my vision.... causing my vision to grow dark.


    .*.

    I awoke again, to my wounds still being untreated.... my eyes and heart worried for my husband and my bretheren. I saw a few more of the maidens... they were snickering, and I could understand them saying that my family was in the torture chambers...

    I felt my heart swell in fear, and snuck out of my room.... and using my connection to the first born... I found them in their cages, beaten, and in pain.

    Legolas looked at me with a black and blue eye... "Metheril..." he whispered in pain as he reached his hand over to me... "I am glad you're safe...."

    Haldir, his breath ragged, nodded, "I must say... this is the only time... I Will ever....agree with him....dear sister..."

    I felt the tears overflowing over my eyes... "Mankoi.....Mankoi?!?!" I felt the scream erupt in my throat as a bright light erupted through my body.... the blessing of Elendil... the granted power of the Firstborn of my mother... shined through my soul and projected out in the torture chambers... releasing the four of them... Aragorn, Legolas, Haldir and Glorfindel.

    This reaction triggered an outrage from the women, as they arrived with their arrows drawn, but with a move from my hand, they all burned up in their hands.

    I saw the leader...Galatea... at the front, yelling at me, "What are you doing??? They are unfit to touch you!!"

    I growled slightly, spitting at her, "Amin feuya ten' lle... Galatea." I scoffed as she fell on her knees in front of my power, "They are just as in right to live...as we are! They are an important part of our peoples lives....we cannot go through life...without love...and they all love me....."

    Galatea stuttered, she was in awe at my power, as she tries to argue with me, "Men are weak... stupid fools... they...are not needed...."

    I walked towards Glorfindel, and cradled his head, as i sneered at them all, "Lle naa haran e' nausalle...." I then whispered deep to Glorfindel, "Gwanur... Use me to show your power with mine... we will all leave together..."

    I felt his head slump in a nod, and i stared at Galatea and the others... and the wash of elendil erupted all over the women.... the wave of pure love...devotion...and hope flooded their souls... I Watched as one by one... fell to their knees in front of me... tears welled up into their eyes of their mistakes.

    Galatea was the last one to fall... her whispered apology touched my heart... "Forgive me... pokiaer...... for I was wrong..."
    she begged to me, her eyes awashed with tears.

    I walked to her, and touched the top of her head, "Then help us...." I pleaded with her as she gazed at me, "Allow us to return to the Golden wood...but help us defend my home...my life...against Thranduil... for he has gone over to the dark shadows... who knows what he will allow of our kin to fall to...."

    Galatea bit her lower lip, and lowered her head in defeat, "We shall allow you to go.... along with a gift...." as she spoke, a winged bird arrived, and perched on my shoulder. "Send Elerendor... and he will bring us to assist you...."

    I nodded, taking everything within my body to allow me not to fall... i smiled, " I thank you....Galatea...."



    .*.

    The next day... I left with the horses... my bretheren were wounded and hurting... when we finally reached the border of our wood... when i saw kin arriving.... Orophin led the group, shouting in our native tongue that we arrived... following him was an injured Lamil... as well as Calaglin...Dinendal....as well as Erethon and Erestor; my nephews from Imladris.

    Erestor was at my side, helping me down from my horse with Legolas... noticing my weakness, "My aunt.... thank the Valar..." he breathed.

    I nodded, holding as strong as possible... shouting out orders, "Take the others to healers...for they are in need of care... give our feathered friend food...and...let my family know...." I couldnt finish my sentence... for my concious mind fell into oblivion.


    .*.

    I awoke in much pain... to the softened voices of my family only in my room. I saw Celebrian... at my side... caressing the hair off my forehead, her eyes overwashed with tears, "Welcome to the living world my loving sister... I am so happy you are home..."

    I felt my voice crack, "Celebrian...." I then looked to see my mother at the foot of my bed, and my father at my other side... their own eyes filled with tears of relief, "Father....Mother..." I said with my voice waivered.

    Celeborn, my father, came to my side and kissed my forehead gently, "...I am so sorry my daughter...for if you felt like you could not trust me... I only do things for your protection and safety... but I love you with my soul and heart... there is nothing I Would not do for you...."

    I felt the tears fall down my face as I closed my eyes... "Gerich meleth nin ada...." I told him as I then looked at my mother, "The others....?"

    My Mother, the lady Galadriel, nodded her head quietly, "They are safe...resting as they should.... something you should do as well my daughter... for the other two lives astir inside of you...." She leaned her own head down to kiss my forehead, her voice speaking to my heart again 'I am very proud of you my daughter....rest...and gain strength... for the light shall be needed...for the coming war... and the children inside of you.....'

    I nodded.....and allowed myself to fall asleep... somewhat peaceful state...happy to be home.....


    .*.

    It has been a week... and those who were injured are now fully healed thanking the Valar of my mothers healing power. I had spent time with my Father, talking to him of what will happen...and we shared to not allow mother to ride to Mirkwood... I tried to let them know that Thranduil was beyond aide.... and i begged for them to allow Legolas to be of our woods.... They agreed.

    I walked the halls, as Rumil bowed to me, "Are you sure you are all right Arwenamin?" he asked worried. He was worried for my size...being the children grew and grew inside of me.. and it was very visible now.

    I shook my head no, smiling, "I am all right Rumil... I am sorry you were injured in our absence..." I Said with pain in my voice... "I wished I could have been here..."

    He smiled, and shook his head, bowing to me, "I Serve the Light with my Life...." he told me simply, and left, just as my niece... Arwen... ran to me and hugged me. She had finally gotten to me and hugged me gently, avoiding the best not to squeeze my stomach, "Oh my Aunt... Are you feeling well?" She worriedly gushed.

    I laughed as i smoothed her dark brown hair, "Yes my child.. I am all right... they grow healthy..." I assured her.

    She then handed me a necklace into my hand... it was the Rose of Luthien... that she held onto. It shone brighter than before.

    I sighed quietly, my eyes tearing up as i thought of what My guardian was doing for me. She had left my husband and I... but left gifts for us... and i had felt her kiss my head... I know she does this for my own protection... I trust her with my life... "Hannon lle...Arwen." I told her as i wore it with the new gift she had given me.

    Just then, I saw my husband come up to me, "You arent doing any heavy lifting are you....?" he asked with a grin as he kissed my neck.

    I laughed, gently hitting him as i did so, "Of course not melamin...." I said just as I saw Erestor running to us, as he kissed his sisters cheek and bowed before me, "Aunt..."

    I looked in worry, forcing Erestor to rise, and greeted him with kisses, "What troubles you my nephew...?" I asked.

    Erestor looked concerned, "I had heard news from my mother and father, they bid me to you at once... we must prepare for war... Thranduil killed one of the guards... he means it...."

    I shared a look with my husband... and looked to Arwen, speaking slowly, "See your grandparents...and seek an audience with them..." I then looked to Erestor, "Go find my kin... is Glorfindel with you?" When i saw the nod, I said, "I wish to speak to him... go watch the wood with Rumil and Orophin and Haldir...tell them what has happened..."

    Erestor and Arwen bowed their heads and took off the other way, as Legolas looked to me with a sigh of frustration. "So it begins..." he said softly.

    I caressed his face, as I whistled softly, and Elerendor perched upon my hand, I whispered in Quenya, "I request help of your master my friend...bid her audience with me....I will not allow my father to harm them...." And watched as Elerendor flew out the window.

    I wrapped my arms around my husband, my heart could not help but worry slightly.... Was my Guardian safe on the way to Mirkwood...? I could only pray to Valar that she was......

    Current Mood: complacent
    I will follow my heart
    Wednesday, January 8th, 2003
    1:29 pm
    Pain yet brings hope...
    I dreamed in pain and torment... but a strange ray of light seemed to play in my heart... a peace that could not have been shaken... the warmth of love... he warmth of family.... I remember talking to Haldir...through our hearts... when i was still under my kidnappers hand....

    I shivered as i figured my eyes were swollen shut from pain as I stopped....feeling someone touch my shoulders, "...Onoro...I can feel you....oh onoro I can feel your touch..." as I felt the touch of his shoulders on the air, the tears began to fall down my face... my body...the power of the firstborn i was granted...

    I felt my shoulders shiver as I felt his voice, choked with emotion... "...I feel your tears... "

    I stopped as i felt people walk up to me, my back against a tree... "Onoro...they come to me....i'm afraid..."

    "Do not show you're afraid... have faith in your kin... we will not let this go on...." He told me as I felt my strength loose the connection... I was able to tell him one thing,

    "Amin mela lle.... onoro...."

    .*.

    I awoke with pain eminating through my body... but I didnt feel the fear of my captors.... Thranduil's warriors... but i felt the heavy piece of a familliar spirit....reborn in flesh....delicate fingers.....caressing my forehead.... a soft voice....softly singing.... sweetly.... my voice cracked with surprise, "Arwenamin...Luthien..... naneth ?" I felt my voice crack with lack of use. I had felt the taste of dry blood on my lip.

    I felt her voice... her true voice.... laced with love... protection....and care whisper to me, "Fear not my child... I am with you.... we are no longer there... we will find Legolas... and the others.... your kin comes for you.... "

    I felt my eyes tear, making the blood liquify again as i felt her fingers grip mine, "...Mankoi....?" Was all I could ask... my voice starting to grow stronger....

    I felt her soft lips kiss my forehead, "shhhh.... Poikaer... " she tried to sooth me... "Rest for now amin hen... I will not leave you...."

    I felt my eyes close of exhaustion.... my mind drifted to my family...my kin... they are all worried about me....especially my husband..... 'I will return to you my love.... I will not leave you alone....'

    Current Mood: exhausted...
    I will follow my heart
    1:29 pm
    Pain yet brings hope...
    I dreamed in pain and torment... but a strange ray of light seemed to play in my heart... a peace that could not have been shaken... the warmth of love... he warmth of family.... I remember talking to Haldir...through our hearts... when i was still under my kidnappers hand....

    I shivered as i figured my eyes were swollen shut from pain as I stopped....feeling someone touch my shoulders, "...Onoro...I can feel you....oh onoro I can feel your touch..." as I felt the touch of his shoulders on the air, the tears began to fall down my face... my body...the power of the firstborn i was granted...

    I felt my shoulders shiver as I felt his voice, choked with emotion... "...I feel your tears... "

    I stopped as i felt people walk up to me, my back against a tree... "Onoro...they come to me....i'm afraid..."

    "Do not show you're afraid... have faith in your kin... we will not let this go on...." He told me as I felt my strength loose the connection... I was able to tell him one thing,

    "Amin mela lle.... onoro...."

    .*.

    I awoke with pain eminating through my body... but I didnt feel the fear of my captors.... Thranduil's warriors... but i felt the heavy piece of a familliar spirit....reborn in flesh....delicate fingers.....caressing my forehead.... a soft voice....softly singing.... sweetly.... my voice cracked with surprise, "Arwenamin...Luthien..... naneth ?" I felt my voice crack with lack of use. I had felt the taste of dry blood on my lip.

    I felt her voice... her true voice.... laced with love... protection....and care whisper to me, "Fear not my child... I am with you.... we are no longer there... we will find Legolas... and the others.... your kin comes for you.... "

    I felt my eyes tear, making the blood liquify again as i felt her fingers grip mine, "...Mankoi....?" Was all I could ask... my voice starting to grow stronger....

    I felt her soft lips kiss my forehead, "shhhh.... Poikaer... " she tried to sooth me... "Rest for now amin hen... I will not leave you...."

    I felt my eyes close of exhaustion.... my mind drifted to my family...my kin... they are all worried about me....especially my husband..... 'I will return to you my love.... I will not leave you alone....'

    Current Mood: exhausted...
    I will follow my heart
    Sunday, January 5th, 2003
    9:52 pm
    Danger has errupted...
    We prepared to set out of Rivendell... our course was set. I followed my newly wed husband... and mygwanur Glorfindel.... and we took off back to head home. I was so happy... we were married. There were no other words to describe my happiness.

    Legolas looked at me as we rode, and smiled, "How fair you melethril...?"

    I grinned, "I am happy because I am with you...." I told him as i blew him a kiss

    "We will stop to sleep soon.....as a matter of fact... we should now... " he looks to Glorfindel, "What say you?"

    Glorfindel nodded as he smiled, "We'll stop for the night.... we need to sleep.........."


    .*.

    I found myself walking through the wood near our camp, my hand on my necklace as i looked to the sky... .I felt my heart freeze as something came around ... i pulled out my daggers.....afraid of what could happen next..... I felt something happen to my heart and a cover was thrown over my eyes.... and pain in my back as my eyes went black


    ( Letter to Glorfindel and Legolas )

    ( To Lothlorien )

    ( To Celebrian )
    1 times i said i love you .*. I will follow my heart
    Friday, January 3rd, 2003
    7:26 pm
    Message from home
    I let Legolas sleep late today as I walked to the dias... my night robes wrapped around me as I looked upon over the layout of Imraldis... my hand gently stroking my stomach that was growing slightly..... but much has happened for the last three days in Rivendell....as my mind drifted back... to remember everything that happened...


    .*.

    I walked the hallways of my other home, admiring the many different things I remembered as a child. My Brother...kin, Elrond Half-Elven... had greeted me, and bid me to join him in the chambers of his tower. I nodded my head, and followed him as he shut the door. He turned to me, "Things seem to be turning the tide muinthel...." he said to me as he looked at me carefully, "I trust you were not hurt at all..."

    I shook my head, my eyes holding a steady, untelling gaze. "Our mother healed me as quick as I was injured... no damage was done." I told him as i gave a hidden smile. "How fairs things here In Rivendell?"

    Elrond nodded quietly as he looked to the side, "Our Mother knows I will keep you safe... until the dealings at Lorien are dealt with even and fair..."

    I kissed his cheek, thanking him quietly, and asking if i may go retire. He nodded and smiled, allowing me to walk around the city, being i had not been in his kingdom in so long. I indeed walked the path, during the time that Legolas stayed in the room, wishint to be alone as he read the letter from his father. I sighed, my eyes were heavy and pained for him. He is not my father anymore... He had told me the night before... his eyes still so pained.

    .*.

    I stopped at the Waterfall of Elendil-- my fingers gently dipping into the waters... when i felt the warmth touch of a familliar form.. and i looked to see that Glorfindel, of the first born... one who TRULY felt as my gwanur... was there with a smile. "... you are troubled... " he said softly, his eyes filled with warmth and trust.

    With tears in my eyes, I buried my face in his chest, the tears welling down my face, as I told him all about his exile...and how I was with his child... how we were looking for a place to marry....

    Glorfindel lifted my head, his warmth in his eyes bore deep into my soul as he crooned gently, the warmth of the power of the Firstborn dripped into my soul...easing my pain. "I will marry you... out in the woods, if you wish arwenamin...."

    My eyes were filled with tears of happiness and mirth, "You mean this...? Oh Gwanur......." I then looked, and saw his face was deeply hiding a pain... a worry in deep in his soul... "Gwanur... something troubles you so deeply...."

    He looked away, as his eyes were hiding the pain, his aura began to flutter, "It is nothing my lady...." he said with a waiver in his voice.

    I felt my eyes pain with tears... "Gwanur...." I said to him, taking his face in my hands, and kissing his forehead, trying to allow what light of Luthien i could bring to him... "If you feel that you can tell me... please know i am always here...."

    Suddenly, he enwrapped me in his arms tightly, a few tears shed out of his eyes, and speaking in our ancient tongue, he told me there was someone he felt for... but knew there was no feelings the same.

    I felt the pain hit my heart, and with careful ease.. I gently forced him to lay down on the nearest bench... and with my whole heart.... my heart began to touch the rose, and silently pleading to my guardian... I began to sing the song known as the "Breath of Life" to our people... a tune that brought rest and rebirth of spirit to those who were blessed by it. I poured into the song as my fingers brushed his forehead, I felt his shivering cease... his body relaxing to my caress.

    After I finished the song, he sat up, his mood and tune smiling... the normal flow of his aura in one with Imraldis... he embraced me tightly, "Thank you muinthel....thank you...." he then smiled at me, "Go to your husband... meet me at our woods within a week....and there i shall marry you both.... "

    I grinned, and kissed his forehead with a smile, "Diola lle Gwanur..." I thanked him over and over again... and ran through the city, looking for wherever Legolas could be.

    .*.

    Searching for him, I stumbled upon a rider who just returned to the city, and with a grin, I called out Suilad Celebrian muinthel!"

    She looked and smiled, as we embraced, her eyes happy with a smile, "Vorladien! What brings you to our home? I thought thee would keep hold in Lorien..."

    I gently looked away, and told her of most of my troubles that lay in danger... my fingers rested upon the rose of Luthien, "Arwen lays troubled, plagued by dreams..." she smiles, "She could use the warmth of a mothers love..."

    Celebrian nodded and with a smile, she whispered to me in our ancient tongue, "Whatever you have to tell me... you can assure I will not tell your brother Elrond..." she hugged me again as she walked down the hall, in search of her daughter, Arwen.


    .*.

    I kept wandering until I saw Aragorn, a family friend; and my husband Legolas together in the garden, speaking of Rohan and where we had stayed for a day... I listened from afar to hear that the Lord Aragorn had drawn close to Lady Eowyn.. and I grinned. She had spoken of a connection she had felt upon the Heir of Elessar, though she dare not tell her uncle. I assured her that she would see him again-- and to not worry.

    I walked up to them as i rested my head on Legolas' shoulder, "...why do I suspect that the strong men plot against me?" I teased as I looked around smiling at the two of them, my eyes grinning deeply.

    Legolas wrapped his arms behind him, drawing me close, "You just know of us too well..." he laughed as he whispered, "How fairs our child...?" he asked, his eyes sparkling as he strokes my stomach

    I laughed, "My lord, I believe that you wish to bear this child besides me!" I teased as i rested my head against his shoulder.

    Aragorn smiled, "I thought it only fair to see your pure skill with a blade... after your child is born of course..." he asked as he bowed.

    I grinned, "How could the Light of Lorien not pass up a challange against her talents?" I teased to Aragorn as he laughed, nodding his head. I leaned my head against Legolas, whispering of news to tell him

    Legolas wrapped his arm around me, "If you will excuse us for tonight Aragorn... we shall see you upon dinner then..." and we walked together back arm and arm.

    We retired to our room, and i grinned, as he sat down , stripping his hunting garb to search for cleaner clothes. He sat on the bed, unbraiding his hair, his clean clothes neat to the side, his hands unbraiding his hair... and as I changed as well... I proved him wrong that our desire for each other is not good enough for us to deny... and we consumated our love again as he could not keep his hands off of me *laughs softly*

    As we laid in each others arms, I whispered to him softly, "...Gwanur will marry us within almost week to two weeks time...." I told him happily, my eyes were sparkling with happiness.

    His eyes grew the same, his grin apparent, "Truly... you kid not my love..." he asked, as he stroked my stomach

    I shook my head, laughing, "Of course not my love... he told me today.... " I looked to see a package on the side, "...Your new clothes?" I asked him.

    He nodded, "Being my ...other clothes were destroyed... I was not letting us marry... in our hunting gear..." he grinned as he gently suckled my neck, "Despite what fantasy you held..."

    I shook my head laughing, kissing his chin, "....I shall enjoy when we finally wed my Lord...."

    "As will I my Light.....as will I..... "



    I sat upon the dias again, when i heard my mothers words speak through my heart... telling me that something was to happen....and that I would be allowed to return to Lorien...both of us were....

    I sighed, grabbing my necklace, and began to softly whisper, "Does your unearthly eyes see danger my guardian...?" I whispered to the wind, my eyes closing softly as i reached to feel the movement of my second home.....

    I felt a pair of lips caress my neck... Legolas stood there, pleading with me to return to bed and lie with him...

    I nodded, and returned to bed with my husband, my hands on my stomach.....

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    Current Music: Breath of Life
    I will follow my heart
    Tuesday, December 31st, 2002
    8:32 pm
    Brushes with Death.....and a new Life... (pt 2)
    We gathered our clothing, and dressed as we went to meet with the others, talking and conversing of our future... of what will to happen....

    "I will not return to Mirkwood...." he told me finally.

    I felt my heart jump in surprise. Not return home? That means he is giving up too much....for me... "My Lord... you cannot be the only one to give up yourself... what of your supplies you need...."

    "It's too big a risk," he muttered as he finished dressing, tightening the belt to his leggings, as he looked to me sadly, "Unfortunately, you can not go home either."

    "We could if Mother understands..." I tried to reason with him as we went to walk for the others, my hand in his

    He shook his head in determination, "It is not your mother I fear, my love..."

    I looked at him sternly, my eyes flashed determination, so alike to my mother, "Do not fear my father, Legolas. He would not dare harm you...not if I order it."

    I felt that he sighed and looked down in shame. "It is Haldir I worry about..." I heard as he hissed, painfully resigning to the fact that he had admitted to such a thing.

    He looked upon me to see that my eyes had darkened with anger, as I felt my fingers turn white as I clutched my hand in a fist. "Onoro will not dare harm you, my love.... or I will indeed ne'er forgive him!" I hissed back, my eyes trying to maintain the softness...not turn to an icy aqua.

    I felt him as he leaned forward and kissed my forehead, whispering gently to calm me. Little by little.... my anger started to slowly dispate from my soul... disappearing under his caress and his kiss. I felt as he held me and kissed me lightly "We shall go to Rivendell and from there decide where our path will take us..."

    I felt my eyes sparkle, a plan was forming.....a plan that i knew could work, "I have a plan my lord..... We can proceed to Rivendell... I shall contact my mother, she will play with us to say that She sent me to Rivendell... because of the judgement of the guard who "shot" me....my kin Elrond dare not send me away...."

    He nods, his eyes begin to gleam with approval, "That shall work my love... but who shall prepare our arrival?"

    At that, Glorfindel appeared with his horse, "I will...i can ride faster....and shall have a welcome for you when i get there..." he told us.

    I nodded quietly, as i embraced Glorfindel, "I shall see you when we arrive my kin...it shall be nice to remember the paths we took as young ones..."

    He nodded and hopping on his horse, he took off.

    We got upon our horses, and said quietly, "Aragorn will come with us... it is up to Merenewen will have to decide what she wishes to do....."

    He blinked at me saying this, but shook his head as we rode to meet aragorn and merenewen... I closed my eyes....and reached through to my mother.... Mother....we ride to Rivendell....please be on my side.. I run to here to avaide the judgement of the guard who shot me....and I ask for your approval...

    We rode on... for days and days... when finally we reached Rivendell.

    .*.

    It had been a few hours once we reached Rivendell... and I was called before Elrond ( perelda ) . I bowed before him, when he opened his arms to take me into an embrace. "My lord Elrond..." I gushed quietly, hugging him softly as he hugged me tightly.

    He tilted my chin, "It is wonderful to see you made it alive in one piece my child..." he told me as he looked upon Aragorn and the others, "And for all of you to bring the Light of Lorien alive... You may stay all as well as long as necessary... till the fate of what is being decided in Lorien is done..." he looks back to me, "Now my child... meet with me later... I wish to know more about the carelessness of when you were "shot"...."

    I nodded and kissing his cheek, "I will my Lord Elrond... I thank you..." and we all left his sight.... for now; we were safe. And it was also thanks to my mother.

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    I will follow my heart
    8:31 pm
    Brushes with death...and a new life (part 1)
    We had ridden for many miles when we finally were reunited with Glorfindel, my kin of Rivendell who had met us. I greeted him as I always do to my Kin, he returning the embrace warmly with a smile. "I'm so happy you found us my kin..." I greeted him with happiness as we all took off. He saw that there was a trouble that ached in my heart...but i had dared not tell him of my husbands fatal wound that lain dormant...the pain returning at times.

    We stopped to make camp, Glorfindel making the suggestion that Aragorn, himself, and the elven maiden Merenewen to go with him to search for food and firewood for tonight. I saw the look in his eyes which gave bay to us to have our own peace for a while. I smiled at him gratefully as Legolas and I went our own way.


    .*.

    We arrived at the most beautiful of waterfalls near the River Isen... a soft cave laiden in with grass upon the other bank. Legolas had been there taking watch for Orcs... I decided to bathe in the water... for there was something astir in me that i was not sure of, but paid not attention to it. I shed the clothes that i had washed next to the river, laying upon the rock to dry, as I allowed the water to cleanse me, gripping the Rose of Luthien in my hand. What song for my fearful heart can I sing my guardian... I whispered in my heart to the darkness, What guidance can you give me....

    I then heard a rather loud splash, and saw the figure of my husband splash into the water. I could not contain a giggle as i watched him re-emerge, soaking wet and blushing red from embarrassment. I started laughing harder, "Since when has my husband become so much of a peeping tom?" I chided gently as he stood up.

    He laughed, hiding his utter embarrassment as he wiped his wet bangs out of his eyes, "Since he can no longer take his eyes off such a vision that is his wife...." he then fell backwards, not appearing as his clothes appeared to the surface; not him. Getting afraid, I called for him, but only to feel him behind me, and pull me to the nearby cave. There, we made love behind the cover of the waterfall, on a grassy patch of land, in the cool damp shade of the solace.

    When our energy was spent... he crawled into the water, and I felt a heave of pain hit my stomach. I looked through the water, and saw the pain of wound was getting worse....and the poison beginning to spread. I fell to my knees, feeling my insides burn with the poison that was coursing his veins and blood...and i knew at this instant: My husband was dying slowly....and I with him.

    I saw him bolt out of the water, and stumble to my side, "Vorladien! What is it?!?" he fell upon his knees, he had forgotten of his pain, but now i could see the green growing deeper in his veins....

    I fell on my face before him, "PLEASE...suffer no more my Lord..... for you are dying.... and I am with you....!"

    His features began to fall cold....his hand clammy and as ice, and his lips were whispering, "I'm sorry...."

    I felt my head shake, my body trembling, "No....NO!" I cried out with my whole body, "You cannot leave me my lord....I need you!" I felt the tears fall faster in my eyes, "...You need to father our child...." and without thinking, I stared up to the sky, and prayed to Luthien My Guardian...show me my power...and help me save my husband from death...

    I took the cleaned dagger at my side, and slicing a bit of his wound where the poison ran, I sliced my wrist slightly, and poured my pure blood....our blood intermixing....another step in our becoming one.... as my blood healed all trace of his illness... he lay without moving for a while.


    .*.

    I wrapped a cloak around me... looking near his body for a place to find a bandage for my arm.... he still lay sleeping as she could see her kin, Glorfindel, along the edge of the river...and he ran to her side immediately at the sight of the blood, "Milady! What has happened...?"

    I told him of how I almost lost Legolas to the sickness...and this wound upon my wrist was self inflicted. He embraced me tightly, unsure of what else to say, but his breath came out in a soft hiss, "He is well now.....right?" he asked me worriedly.

    I nodded, "His breathing is normal... and his scar is gone..." i watched as Glorfindel bound my bleeding wrist, with precision and such loving care.

    I felt the tears well in my eyes, as i told him, "...I am with his child my kin....." i felt the tears fall quicker, "I am to have his child...."

    Glorfindel's eyes lit up with joy for me as he embraced me again, "Milady that is wonderful news! I hope the best for you both....and you need not worry...I will not leave your sides...."

    I thanked him so much, and told him to go back to Aragorn and Merenewen to let them know nothing was wrong. He kissed my forehead, and walked to the camp.


    .*.

    I went back to his side, and started to sing in a softened ancient song that i had heard Luthien sing to me many of times... and i saw his eyes begin to flutter open. He was dizzy, surprised, when he reached to touch his side, he did not feel the scar, "...Vorladien...where is my scar...."

    I turned my head slightly, the tears welling deeply in my eyes, "....You were dying my lord.....as was I.....but I had to heal you....for our child...."

    His heart jumped as I spoke the words and he stared at me, wide-eyed, as his mouth was struggling to speak. "M....My child....?"

    My eyes were shaky, yet assured. "Yes my lord..." I whispered softly.

    "Vorladien, you are with child?" he asked again, his eyes lit up in amazment.

    I nodded silently as I placed my hand upon my stomach "I can feel it...melamin...."

    Still overwhelmed, he sighed gently, his eyes dancing with happiness as he took me into his arms in the sweetest embrace "Oh, my love...." I could feel him breath, his hands touching my body as if he had not held me in those arms for the longest aching time. "Oh, My Love, My Light, this is wonderful!"

    I felt the tears begin to well within my eyes as i could feel the tears that began to well up in his own eyes as he embraced me, so overwhelmed with emotion. My tears began to fall as they mixed with the tears of his. I felt a taste of salt to my lips as well; the mix of salt with the bittersweetness of our mirth and joy. "A child! Oh, Vorladien!!! I love you, I love you...." was all he kept repeating to me.... his love and his joy mixed in his words.

    My body relaxed against his own, and I felt my eyes soften in love. I may have looked as if I were as overwhelmed with sudden happiness as he.. "My Lord.... " was all that I could breathe.

    "Vorladien," he whispered to me, his breath hot and soft in my ear, "You saved my life...You are giving me another one."

    I could not stop myself as I smiled. "If you are happy, My Love, then so am I." I told him softly, my fingers playing across his face, as if i knew not the curves my very heart had memorized.

    He looked upon me with such worry and concern as it washed over his features, "Why would I not be happy? I have now all that I have ever wanted!"

    I placed my hand over his heart, and with the ancient tongue, I sang the song I sang days past to him when we were along the river Anduin , Mine in yours....and yours in mine....forever till the end of time.....Forever we shall be happy, my lord.

    I felt him slowly lay me to my back, swadling me with the silken robe i had next to my side. As i watched him intently, he slid down to lay by me, and his ear rested upon my stomach. I watched as I knew he felt the beat of life of the unborn child..... our unborn child... and heard him begin to speak....

    "Siluad... my child........ for I'm your father.... You will one day rule an entire kingdom.. Perhaps two..." he said with a smile. I felt my heart soften even more as he continued his talk to our child, "Your mother is perfect, she is the Light of Lorien... Inside of her the spirit of Luthien dwells... I don't deserve her... but you do..." his words were quiet and gentle as I felt him lay a kiss upon my stomach.

    I pulled his head up to meet me, my soft fingers holding his face lovingly, and my eye firmly gazed into his. "Our child deserves us both, my lord.... Just as we deserve eachother."

    He smiled, his eyes deep as our foreheads touched each other, "I love you, Daughter of Lorien...with all my heart..." he pledged to me as we held each others hand.

    "and I love you, Son of Mirkwood...With all that I am..." I told him softly, kissing his lower lip quietly, my eyes sinking shut.

    I felt him as he pressed his hand to my stomach and felt his lips brush against my cheek. "Perhaps we should give some of our love to our little one..."

    I placed my hand upon his, and the love we sent our child was that of purity..... purity that we would raise this child as best as we could.....together.

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    I will follow my heart
    7:13 pm
    Brushes of Death... and a new life brought through
    We had ridden for many miles when we finally were reunited with Glorfindel, my kin of Rivendell who had met us. I greeted him as I always do to my Kin, he returning the embrace warmly with a smile. "I'm so happy you found us my kin..." I greeted him with happiness as we all took off. He saw that there was a trouble that ached in my heart...but i had dared not tell him of my husbands fatal wound that lain dormant...the pain returning at times.

    We stopped to make camp, Glorfindel making the suggestion that Aragorn, himself, and the elven maiden Merenewen to go with him to search for food and firewood for tonight. I saw the look in his eyes which gave bay to us to have our own peace for a while. I smiled at him gratefully as Legolas and I went our own way.


    .*.

    We arrived at the most beautiful of waterfalls near the River Isen... a soft cave laiden in with grass upon the other bank. Legolas had been there taking watch for Orcs... I decided to bathe in the water... for there was something astir in me that i was not sure of, but paid not attention to it. I shed the clothes that i had washed next to the river, laying upon the rock to dry, as I allowed the water to cleanse me, gripping the Rose of Luthien in my hand. What song for my fearful heart can I sing my guardian... I whispered in my heart to the darkness, What guidance can you give me....

    I then heard a rather loud splash, and saw the figure of my husband splash into the water. I could not contain a giggle as i watched him re-emerge, soaking wet and blushing red from embarrassment. I started laughing harder, "Since when has my husband become so much of a peeping tom?" I chided gently as he stood up.

    He laughed, hiding his utter embarrassment as he wiped his wet bangs out of his eyes, "Since he can no longer take his eyes off such a vision that is his wife...." he then fell backwards, not appearing as his clothes appeared to the surface; not him. Getting afraid, I called for him, but only to feel him behind me, and pull me to the nearby cave. There, we made love behind the cover of the waterfall, on a grassy patch of land, in the cool damp shade of the solace.

    When our energy was spent... he crawled into the water, and I felt a heave of pain hit my stomach. I looked through the water, and saw the pain of wound was getting worse....and the poison beginning to spread. I fell to my knees, feeling my insides burn with the poison that was coursing his veins and blood...and i knew at this instant: My husband was dying slowly....and I with him.

    I saw him bolt out of the water, and stumble to my side, "Vorladien! What is it?!?" he fell upon his knees, he had forgotten of his pain, but now i could see the green growing deeper in his veins....

    I fell on my face before him, "PLEASE...suffer no more my Lord..... for you are dying.... and I am with you....!"

    His features began to fall cold....his hand clammy and as ice, and his lips were whispering, "I'm sorry...."

    I felt my head shake, my body trembling, "No....NO!" I cried out with my whole body, "You cannot leave me my lord....I need you!" I felt the tears fall faster in my eyes, "...You need to father our child...." and without thinking, I stared up to the sky, and prayed to Luthien My Guardian...show me my power...and help me save my husband from death...

    I took the cleaned dagger at my side, and slicing a bit of his wound where the poison ran, I sliced my wrist slightly, and poured my pure blood....our blood intermixing....another step in our becoming one.... as my blood healed all trace of his illness... he lay without moving for a while.


    .*.

    I wrapped a cloak around me... looking near his body for a place to find a bandage for my arm.... he still lay sleeping as she could see her kin, Glorfindel, along the edge of the river...and he ran to her side immediately at the sight of the blood, "Milady! What has happened...?"

    I told him of how I almost lost Legolas to the sickness...and this wound upon my wrist was self inflicted. He embraced me tightly, unsure of what else to say, but his breath came out in a soft hiss, "He is well now.....right?" he asked me worriedly.

    I nodded, "His breathing is normal... and his scar is gone..." i watched as Glorfindel bound my bleeding wrist, with precision and such loving care.

    I felt the tears well in my eyes, as i told him, "...I am with his child my kin....." i felt the tears fall quicker, "I am to have his child...."

    Glorfindel's eyes lit up with joy for me as he embraced me again, "Milady that is wonderful news! I hope the best for you both....and you need not worry...I will not leave your sides...."

    I thanked him so much, and told him to go back to Aragorn and Merenewen to let them know nothing was wrong. He kissed my forehead, and walked to the camp.


    .*.

    I went back to his side, and started to sing in a softened ancient song that i had heard Luthien sing to me many of times... and i saw his eyes begin to flutter open. He was dizzy, surprised, when he reached to touch his side, he did not feel the scar, "...Vorladien...where is my scar...."

    I turned my head slightly, the tears welling deeply in my eyes, "....You were dying my lord.....as was I.....but I had to heal you....for our child...."

    His heart jumped as I spoke the words and he stared at me, wide-eyed, as his mouth was struggling to speak. "M....My child....?"

    My eyes were shaky, yet assured. "Yes my lord..." I whispered softly.

    "Vorladien, you are with child?" he asked again, his eyes lit up in amazment.

    I nodded silently as I placed my hand upon my stomach "I can feel it...melamin...."

    Still overwhelmed, he sighed gently, his eyes dancing with happiness as he took me into his arms in the sweetest embrace "Oh, my love...." I could feel him breath, his hands touching my body as if he had not held me in those arms for the longest aching time. "Oh, My Love, My Light, this is wonderful!"
    I felt the tears begin to well within my eyes as i could feel the tears that began to well up in his own eyes as he embraced me, so overwhelmed with emotion. My tears began to fall as they mixed with the tears of his. I felt a taste of salt to my lips as well; the mix of salt with the bittersweetness of our mirth and joy. "A child! Oh, Vorladien!!! I love you, I love you...." was all he kept repeating to me.... his love and his joy mixed in his words.

    My body relaxed against his own, and I felt my eyes soften in love. I may have looked as if I were as overwhelmed with sudden happiness as he.. "My Lord.... " was all that I could breathe.
    "Vorladien," he whispered to me, his breath hot and soft in my ear, "You saved my life...You are giving me another one."

    I could not stop myself as I smiled. "If you are happy, My Love, then so am I." I told him softly, my fingers playing across his face, as if i knew not the curves my very heart had memorized.

    He looked upon me with such worry and concern as it washed over his features, "Why would I not be happy? I have now all that I have ever wanted!"

    I placed my hand over his heart, and with the ancient tongue, I sang the song I sang days past to him when we were along the river Anduin , Mine in yours....and yours in mine....forever till the end of time.....Forever we shall be happy, my lord.

    I felt him slowly lay me to my back, swadling me with the silken robe i had next to my side. As i watched him intently, he slid down to lay by me, and his ear rested upon my stomach. I watched as I knew he felt the beat of life of the unborn child..... our unborn child... and heard him begin to speak....

    "Siluad... my child........ for I'm your father.... You will one day rule an entire kingdom.. Perhaps two..." he said with a smile. I felt my heart soften even more as he continued his talk to our child, "Your mother is perfect, she is the Light of Lorien... Inside of her the spirit of Luthien dwells... I don't deserve her... but you do..." his words were quiet and gentle as I felt him lay a kiss upon my stomach.

    I pulled his head up to meet me, my soft fingers holding his face lovingly, and my eye firmly gazed into his. "Our child deserves us both, my lord.... Just as we deserve eachother."

    He smiled, his eyes deep as our foreheads touched each other, "I love you, Daughter of Lorien...with all my heart..." he pledged to me as we held each others hand.

    "and I love you, Son of Mirkwood...With all that I am..." I told him softly, kissing his lower lip quietly, my eyes sinking shut.

    I felt him as he pressed his hand to my stomach and felt his lips brush against my cheek. "Perhaps we should give some of our love to our little one..."

    I placed my hand upon his, and the love we sent our child was that of purity..... purity that we would raise this child as best as we could.....together.

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    I will follow my heart
    Monday, December 30th, 2002
    1:13 pm
    The Darkened River Anduin....
    I watched the young elven maiden Merenewen as her corner of her eye kept awatch over my husband and love; and all I could do was feel pity for her. I could sense her inner turmoil within her, and knew of what plagued her soul. Could this be what my mother faired in speaking to me.... the fear of others to my power?


    .*.

    My poor kin.... I had left them without warning....but my mother promised along with Arwen to give me as long as we possibly could be away.... as long as we stayed out of sight of the guards... and my cousins everwatchful gaze. The talk I had with haldir before I left was one i shall nay forget.... for it was the cousin I remembered of my younger years... the one who showed emotion to me.... the one I missed for a few centuries...

    "You hold me as you not have in ages my brother..." I whispered chidingly to Haldir, my eyes were abrazen with tears of pain, upon a darkened nightmare of his valiant death; upon what appeared to be the Mortal Fortress of Rohan; Helms Deep.

    I felt him laugh quietly, as he held me tighter, "That was long ago cousin..." his features began to harden in emotionlessness, "...Time can freeze emotions...." he said as his voice dropped.

    I looked up at him, my fingers caressing his cheek, "Do not let such things happen my brother.... and do not hesitate to call me what you treat me as..." I touched a finger to his lips, "For If I treat you as my brother..."

    "....You are Forever always my sister...." his breath was short and raspy, his eyes held what almost looked like unshed tears, "And I forever shall hold you as that...."

    I nodded, and walked away, kissing his cheek, "I left some Lembas and water at your post....nata wished you to "talk" to all guards about what has happened ... to assure that it happens not again.... " I smiled and left his company... knowing it would be the last time for a time i would see his face.

    .*.

    I had also spoken to my father before my mother came to "Speak" to me... I was held in his embrace... and he spoke to me in our tongue, "I pray that you nay forget to come to me daughter.... if you are ever in pain...."

    I felt the tears in my eyes, after telling him of the time I had seen Lady Luthien Tinuviel.. and i promised to a point, "I will nata..." I told him, as i left to the company of my mother, hiding the Rose of Luthien... the keepsake my ancestor gave me in my sleep.

    I stood in the prescence of my Lady Mother... her regal form and elegance was captivating, yet her dominance and will were still fearful to me. She smiled quietly at me, her fingers running through my strawberry locks, "....Do not hide your pain from me my daughter... for I know of what you hide... and I know I cannot stop your decision you have made..."

    I gasped quietly, my heart stopped dead in my chest. She knows of my plans.... I feel as if I have betrayed her.... " Arwenamin..., " I whispered in pain, "I dared not say... I love him with all I am... I cannot bear to part his way... for it would kill us both....as it almost had when i lay wounded before healed by your all powerful touch..."

    She shook her head, and smiled, and I saw something I had not seen in my mothers eyes in centuries... I seen an unshed tear, "Do not fear my child... for your path is now laid out before you, you areThe light of our lands... the Light of Lorien... you will return to Lorien... you both shall... and meet friends along the way...." she turned her head slightly to look at the doorway, "Your father will be nay happy...but I will try my best to keep his calm...."

    I felt the tears fall quicker, as I hugged myself tighter to the woman who bore me life... the woman whose image i bore.... "Mother....I am afraid of my true calling..."

    Mother took her hand and held the Rose of Luthien out of my gown, as well as the ring from melamin... "You bear the soul of our ancestor who watches you... of the love who bears you.... " and as she moved her fingers, a small silver ring appeared....smaller, made of the light of her own ring of power... "And you bear the ring of love, from a Mother to her child...." she indicated with her head, "He waits for you at the North Gate... you have the dark as your ally to leave.... "

    With an almost thankful joy in my heart, I hugged her one last time, " Amin mela lle...atara...... I shall return as swift as we can...." I ran into my room to change, my bag was already packed.

    I returned to the North Gate... with the two horses... and whispered, "Melamin....Melamin..." I called gently, and saw as he jumped from his tree, we embraced in the quiet moonlight.. "Come...we must leave quick haste... Merenewen returns now..." i told him without looking, and to Legolas' surprise.. she was indeed there upon her own horse, having prepared for our departure. He nodded as we mounted our horses, and quickly fled in the safety of the night of the Rivers side....


    .*.

    We rode for a few days... and Ran across the first member of our party to grow upon Mirkwood... the mortal man; friend and Ally to my "husband"... Aragorn: Son of Arathorn. We ran upon him as we met upon the Riders of Rohan speaking to him.... that including Eomer, nephew to the crowned King Theoden. Legolas spoke to them in the Common Tongue, explaining who myself and Merenewen were. I felt her slight fear of the Rohan riders, and i touched her shoulder, "Do not fear them..." I told her in our tongue, "For they mean no harm to our people; my husband holds a deep bond with the Son of Arathorn....he is to be trusted..." I walked forward, and the two men stopped in awe and lowered their heads slightly....the power i apparently emitted, according to Aragorn; was great. I bid them both hello, and to Eomer, I told him something that hit me square in my heart, "Your bravery shall pay off in ever darkened times, Eomer, for your cousin shall not be able to hold strong as you... do not let the darkened tongue of Grime to falter your own heart; for you shall play the key role in the safety of the king...."

    He stared at me in shock and hesitancy, but he nodded, "You are fair and wise lady Vorladien... you and your kin are welcome into the castle for a place to rest tonight... for I know my uncle is a stern yet kind man... heartful to the trouble of another."

    I nodded, looking unto my other companions, for they had no quarrel with stay in a warm bed. "I Shall look forward to meeting your king," I told him warmly, smiling softly as I had done so. We all, including Aragorn set out for the ride to Rohan.


    .*.

    We made it to Rohan... where I had gotten the chance to meet the sister to Eomer, the lady Eowyn. She was indeed fair as mortal woman stood; but she also possessed a strong will to fight. I Found our hearts formed an alliance together in perfection. I approached the king, and bowed low, "I forgive our passing your lands, Great King Theoden, and Theadrid...son of the king... We only ask for one night stay.... and we shall be on our way."

    The King nodded, "You bear well lady of the wood; we bid you welcome and nights rest in Rohan."

    I Bowed low, as did my companions, and we left his sight, to food and drink.


    .*.

    Late at night, I stood outside of the castle walls, upon the northern gate, swinging my daggers flawlessly... allowing my skills to hone and flow in the open way from the prying eyes of others... when i turned fast at the clang of metal upon metal, when i came across Aragorn; heir of Isildurl smiling at me. "Legolas was indeed true.." he said in the tongue of my people, "You are a lethal beauty, yet fairest of all Lorien maidens seen..."

    I laughed quietly, "My husband would say such things, when it was he who taught me well..." I went quiet for a moment, and spoke again, "Aragorn-- i know your journey lies to Rivendell.. but I have a favor to ask of you... to accompany us to Mirkwood... and bring comradery for my husband. So long has he gone without friend who know him as well as he tells me of his friendship with you... " I explained to him of all that had happened to me... to Legolas... of the Rose of Luthien.. our forbidden love; and our quest.

    Aragorn listened deeply, and got down upon one knee, "For the sake of the light of elundil," he finished in my native tongue, "I shall accompany you my lady... to bring what assistance I can offer."

    I made him stand up immediately, but a smile as i touched his cheek, "You need not bow before me Heir of Isildur...for I am an equal in status; same as you; reguardless if you feel your path has laiden elsewhere... it shall be shown to you...."

    Legolas appeared to us then, his lips caressing my neck, "What matters of do you speak to my wife my friend..." he said with a grin to Aragorn, his arms wrapped tightly around my waist.

    I turned to him with the warmest of smiles, "Aragorn has agreed.. to accompany us to your homeland....and bring his comradeship with us...."

    Legolas' eyes lit up happily, and the two friends grasped shoulders in eagerness. I stood away for a moment, watching my husband happy for the first time other than from me in weeks....

    I looked up at the sky above by the moon, as my fingers entwined around the pearlen rose of Luthien, and whispered quietly in the ancient tongue: " I feel your watchful eye upon me arwenamin... please continue to watch and guide me... "


    .*.

    Upon the next day.. we set out again into the wilds of the hills of Rohan...speeding towards the Woodland Realm. When night fell...we all; my husband; Aragorn; Merenewen, and I at the fire...when i saw a figure in the wood nearby.... I went to investigate, promising my husband i would not be gone long; and this shadow held no ill will....but he was pressed to come with me, for that I could not stop him.

    When we reached the figure, I ran forward in happiness; for it was nother of my kin from Rivendell... Glorfindel. "Mae govannen Glorfindel!" I bid him with happiness as my arms hugged him fiercely.

    I Felt his warm smile as he returned the embrace, "Mae govannen Arwenamin Vorladien....Legolas" he said as he stepped forward, greeting Legolas as Legolas and Aragorn had met. "I felt your presence here milady..." he told me as he looked back, "And I sense that this is not something you wish your father or your kin in Rivendell to know..."

    We explained our ill plight to Glorfindel, and to his mind, i told of my inner fears... he seemed to know of my plight....as he held me; as all my kin close to me will have done... "I will accompany you all...if I may..." he looks to Legolas for approval.

    Legolas grinned, "We welcome you with open arms my friend... we shall be riding the river anduin until we reach close to Rivendell... when the dawn rises the 2nd day..."

    "And there I Shall meet you with my horse and supplies..." Glorfindel finished, then looked to me, and bowed his head, "Fear not my lady....your kin shall ride to protect thee as well....and I will nay faulter... until the 2nd day....farewell!" And he disappeared into the wood.

    I held myself against my husband, watching as he went out of sight... "...he shall be as Arwen..." I assured Legolas....kissing his brow, "His loyalty lies within me...not in my kin Elrond... or within my father.... but within my mother and I..."

    He nodded as he held me close, "Come...our other party waits for us....it is time to feast....for the night grows quickly..." and he led me back to camp, my hand around the rose of luthien.... the ring my mother bore me glistening as i held the rose.

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    I will follow my heart
    Friday, December 27th, 2002
    4:36 pm
    A friend and family returned...
    I had heard the sound of knocking from the door to my room.... the healers requested that i stayed in bed for a few more hours. Legolas stayed with me...playing his role as my "teacher", but he wanted to stay with me to make sure that nothing was wrong with me... i know my melamin was worried about me with everything that happened the night before... when i was embraced by the lady luthien.. i truly think she has come to protect me and show me the true power i had.. because when i first woke up after the incident... i had begged my onoro to not tell my mother Galadriel... or my father what had happened to me.. and when i had kissed his hand in gratitude.. he seemed to shiver slightly... as well as when i touched Legolas on the head... he looked up in surprise... as if i had shocked him or something.... what is going on with me?

    I saw Legolas go to answer the door, and to my warmest surprise... it was my kin...Arwen from Rivendell. I smiled softly, happy to see her, "Welcome back home to Lorien...Arwen my friend." I smiled at her as she came to my side and knelt next to me. She seemed very worried when she saw me bedridden, but I assured her that I would be all right in a few hours, and that i was just exhausted my strength.

    Legolas knew i wanted to spend time with Arwen, so he told me he would go back to his room for a little while, and we could continue our training later.. I smiled, giving him my assured 'We will talk tonight...' and he nodded un-noticed as he smiled at me, and left the room.

    Arwen took his place at my side and held my hand, "What is wrong with Haldir? He seems more uptight than usual... he snapped at me when I had asked where you happened to be...."

    I shook my head, "Forgive him Arwen... he has alot on his mind... he finds it hard to trust Legolas... but i have told him Legolas is here to train me... he is my teacher, and not to take lightly about that...." I wanted to tell her everything.... about my love for Legolas...the consumation of our love... our wish to marry so that he would not have to marry the elven woman betrothed to him back in Mirkwood... I knew that I could trust her... but i felt afraid... of what her father... Lord Elrond of Rivendell would say....

    I felt her call me to ask what was bothering me... and i tried to keep a smile on my face. however, i wanted to softly cry right then.... the first time in a while... and it was because i wanted to tell my true feelings... but the truth shall stay between myself... and melamin...

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    3 times i said i love you .*. I will follow my heart
    12:41 am
    She does exist....
    So much has happened within the last day.... I am unsure of where to begin.....


    After a discussion between my onoro Haldir and my melanin Legolas... Legolas and I disappeared into the wood to begin the "Training" he had planned for me that day.

    The discussion with my onoro was no more than i could expect. Haldir, even though he holds his duty as the watchman of our wood... he also swore an oath to my father... tht he would be my onoro and watch out for me... no matter what would happen.

    I softly leaned my head against his chest and whispered when he told me he was not completely trustworthy... "Just please trust my judgement... onoro..."

    I felt him wrap his arm around my waist just briefly, and him sigh, "I shall trust thee Cousin...no more than i can promise."

    I knew that was all I could get out of him... that was all I could hope for.

    When i saw Legolas stumble upon us... i could tell he was uneasy that i was with him. He was afraid of Haldir's suspicions... I then noticed that his arm was bleeding heavily, and being i had to go to the great river Anduin to get onoro drinking water... I wrapped a wet cloth in its healing waters for his wound. I knew i should not have left them alone together... but the severity of his wound held more precedent

    When i returned... I could see both of their spirits lighten just a bit... strange my prescence could soften the hearts of two of the strongest wood warriors of our people... I handed [info]lorien_haldir his water, and wrapped the cloth around [info]mirkwoodarcher1 to heal his wound. As we walked away... I heard Haldir's final word

    "I shall be ever... watchful...."

    I groaned to myself, forgive me onoro... but tonight i have plans of my own...

    We ended up training for the most part... dagger practice... playful wrestling... which led to us passionately consumating our love that night. I know neither of us regret the actions we took... it felt right... however...

    Soon the sound of onoro came from outside the door... I rushed into the bathroom, where I had left some of my robes in his closet... and bit my lip hearing onoro and </i>melamin</i> speak from in his room... and i heard the talk of my gown.... I knew what i could say... but would onoro believe my words?

    Just then... I heard a soft voice.. melodic woman.. singing in the verse of ancient tongue:
    Trust forth in what your heart believes
    For I shall bring my help indeed
    Listen for my call on morrows eve
    All will be shown, just wait and see
    Dearest Elundil; light of Lorien lay
    For your worried heart shall calm one day....

    When the voice died... my heart went to bed troubled... but i dared not utter to legolas or to haldir.. not even my mother...for she think of me mad

    The next morrow... I was walking around alone... when the voice; soft, melodic and compelling captured my heart... and pulled me out into the wood... I know melamin and onoro attempted to follow me. but i had to trust the voice...

    When i made it to the edge of the river Anduin... I felt a light envelop me ... and the beautiful face of Luthien... the elven maiden sung of ages past... was comforting me.. singing to me...the power i felt enveloped me with a warmth I had not felt before....

    Just then... it died before she could finish...afraid i would think... and i felt myself drop into daze... not snapping out of it until I found myself in my own bed...

    ...I wonder if she will grace my sight again... the Lady Luthien...

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    I will follow my heart
    Thursday, December 26th, 2002
    2:27 am
    A passion i cannot forget to push down
    Nay did the night avail to me when i was sitting upon the watchtower that I had kept watch over so many nights... I had even hidden myself from my cousin, Haldir, who was sent on order by my father to bring me back... when my old teacher....companion... and longtime friend... [info]mirkwoodarcher1 appeared in our woods again.

    I ran to him, enthralled to see my old teacher and confidant again. We talked of many things.... of how we faired... of our time apart... we even had gifts for each other...

    He did not wish to return home to the land of mirkwood, and asked if my family would be so gracious to offer him a home again... I know my mother would be honored to have him back in our care... we owe it to Tharandil... his father. and I get to spend the nights with my companion again.... what sweet bliss shall this enrapture this night...

    Yet...there is something stirring in my heart.... a longing for more from the heired prince of the Mirkwood Deep.... however... I am afraid... that he does not share the same longing for the Light of Lorien...

    *she sinks against her pillow,hugging it warmly, and speaking in elvish she mutters*

    From this night... my heart belongs to one...

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    1 times i said i love you .*. I will follow my heart
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